COOL BLUE SPRING OF KNOWLEDGE

Shy Watson

my grief felt fraudulent

i entertained

a false memory

of the couch

it was a clear day,

a tuesday,

the sky a perfect shade

of 9/11 blue

i couldn’t worry myself

he showed me the diaper girl

until i said fine

at fort greene park

in the middle of everyone

cheering, dancing, drinking

accompanied by their dogs

i experienced acute

derealization

conceded it was

better than before

but maybe not

i had no hand in the matter

& i wouldn’t have

even if i had

Shy Watson is the author of two poetry collections: Horror Vacui (House of Vlad, 2021) and Cheap Yellow (CCM, 2018). She co-founded Blush Lit and lives in Brooklyn, NY.